I had to.

a year dedicated to teaching me = random moments of tears

My favorite teacher (of all time) passed away Jan 2010, I wish I could have gone to the Life Celebration they had for him. Every once in a while I go look at the obituary of his, or look at the wall of the Mt. Tabor Middle School Alumni and read all the posts dedicated to the love of Mr. O'Halloran. I have no idea why. I'm an emotional cutter I guess.

He was funny and amazing, the way every teacher should be. He is the reason I got so into writing and why I love it and dedicate so much of my time to it now. Maybe not professionally, but it will always be close to my heart, as he shall always be.

Mr. O, you are truly one of the best angels anyone could ever want to be surrounded by.

Yeah.

It's easy for me to let you go when I never allowed myself to grab on in the first place. 

What the hell happened last night?

I really dislike waking up to horrible world news. A really intense hard earthquake hit Japan which is causing a tsunami warning for the ENTIRE pacific coast. My grandparents live on the oregon coast, I have a friend in Hawaii and a friend in San Fran, so I hope they are all going to be alright. Just another event to keep us all on our toes.


*sigh*


Hopes and prayers go out to everyone who is or will be affected by this disaster.


<3

I have plenty of reasons to smile.

There were times I thought
That I couldn't do it
Moments when taking a breath
Seemed so out of reach.

And out of all the battles
That I've been through
Learning to love myself
Has been the hardest to do.

But I've had hands
To catch me from the fall
And hearts wide open
To see me conquer it all.

So I could push myself
To near extreme levels
And learn that in life
I should never settle.

Misery.

it's kind of a rough draft that i've written, so forgive me. :)

(chorus)
you'll  always be the one
but i'll never tell you
'cause i don't want you
to feel any power over me
i can't seem to be free
of this love that i call misery

years go by
and deep inside
it's still the same
in your direction
points my affection
but i refuse to cave.


(chorus)
you'll  always be the one
but i'll never tell you
'cause i don't want you
to feel any power over me
i can't seem to be free
of this love that i call misery

i've turned off the emotions
that led me down
the path of self destruction
though deep inside
they still hide
i've overcome the motions.

(bridge)
i wish i could let you back in
but our timing is always wrong
but i'll still love you
even when i'm moving along

(chorus)
you'll  always be the one
but i'll never tell you
'cause i don't want you
to feel any power over me
i can't seem to be free
of this love that i call misery

What a complicated process

Just testing this so far. :)